Ever experience a moment when you’re just feeling under the weather, and while you feel so cheerless inside, you still go on with your everyday life feigning that the feeling isn’t there?
Suddenly, someone rubs you the wrong way, and normally you wouldn’t even make a big fuss out of it, but you did
make a big fuss out of it and you end being called too sensitive, and you cry and try to stifle your sobs, but the effin’ tears just won’t stop!
Then you feel that you badly needed someone to talk to, so you check you phone’s list of contacts, your Facebook friends list, and even anyone you know who are in close vicinity of your place, yet there’s no one… no one you want to bother with your bothersome feelings, no one you suppose could help make the bad emotions go away.
So you write it. In a diary? On an online blog? Who really cares? You just write it down and you pour your emotions out. Then while doing that you realize and ask yourself “Why not talk to Him?”, and you wanted to, you wanted to so badly. You made a silent prayer and showed Him the true depths of your heart.
But then, it wasn’t enough. You want someone who can speak to you back. Who can tell you exactly what to do, because you are just one emotional train wreck right now, and everything doesn’t seem right to you anymore. Everything is black and gray, and whatever colors left is slowly fading.